you and me

Sitting down with a notepad.So much shit going through my head

Enough with the lights, gonna turn them off.

Lets write a few lines, who knew love had a soul.

I need to start the part

which was cut in half

every time our words lost control

I was a boy, like them all

I never wanted to grow up before i was old

and like everyone else

I liked a girl or two

I still remember the day when i saw you

You came to my home with a smile

I was 12

you saw me naked thanks to a fucking cuzon who can't get his own shit right

Boy o boy

That night or after a few

we went for a walk

yeah, just me and you

I don't know what we said or how we talked

but there was something different about you

I can't explain it, I just have a glimse of me and you

You went away

like you were meant too

not before the night

when me and you played 'touch touch'

haha yeah we did, and no it wasn't rated

So moving on

You went to your home

started living your life

I guess I cried one night

but i moved on

Hell, i was just 12 that time

an year or so passed

me and you talked every once in awhile

and it wasn't till you were coming to my home on the next flight

that i got to know you better

I remember the buzz lightyear i used to play with infront of the webcam

Yeah I was always like that

Can't help it

You came..

You came

You came

You took my breath away

I saw you every single day

I used to come back from school straight to your place

Those were the days

That got me and you close

Those were the days

That i can so easily still live for

Sitting down with a notepad.So much shit going through my head

Enough with the lights, gonna turn them off.

Lets write a few lines, who knew love had a soul.

Baby remember the first kiss?

How we went home

You sat on that sofa

Waiting for me to make a move

I did so

I came close to you

I kissed your forhead

Your nose

and finally, your lips too

How you ran away,

You looked like a beauty queen

I still didn't love you

I didn't know what love could be

Days flew

and every day was amazing

It was time for you to go

A few nights before you were leaving

me and you got to know

what's it like, to be in eachothers arms

How we took that risk, I still don't know

For when everyone was sleeping

me and you, kept dreaming

about how we standing together, should never end

about how, we looked so perfect

The time came

you had to go

I got in my car

You jumped in without caring about what the world would think

Yeah that was me and you

we weren't scared

we did everything

How i held your hand underneath those tables

and how i grabed it tight, before your flight

I still can feel your hand baby

If only i knew i would never get to touch it again

I would never let go

Well

you left again

for one

two

three

four

I could do nothing

Distance was out of my control

We grew apart

and everytime

you were the one who didn't want more

I remember the nights when we first broke up

How i used to be on the phone

to all my friends, trying to figure out a way to get back to your home

They all tried, so did i

It was useless

You locked the door

Finally i gave up

When i figured you actually were outta control

You did something, I still don't know what for

I did everything for you

I did what i could

Where the fuck did i go wrong?

I just don't know

Time passed

I learned how to move on

I thank all my friends, who stood with me through it all

But you came back

Being who you were once before

I had to let it go

You were just a young soul

The bad memory faded in the past

but just cuz of it

I grew old

This time you tried

and i love you for it

I was outta my mind to even think of making it work

But you did

you fought it out

We got back on track

You and me, once more

All the days i spent with you

I will never take a single day for granted

I know what life is without you

I know what life is, with you

Back to my story

Things went wrong again

I guess the fights grew

We just split up, for no reason

It was my turn again

To get us back together

to work out a way

So i named it

Now or never

Now or never

I put my everything into it

Counted the hours for you to get to a place where i can take matters in my own hands

where i have no boundaries to get to you

and so i did

I took everything on

Remember how me and you were never scared?

I fought through it all

got to the place, where you would be coming

in the end, i was just a day short

where my dad, would kick me out, if i wouldn't get home

So i flew

all the way back home

I remember looking outside the window before the plane took off

I knew i was gonna see this place

soon

Once more

and so you came

I left you a mail

asking u to call me asap

You messaged me

I told you i would be coming

You didn't wanna see me

You wouldn't talk to me

You were someonelse

I felt so miserable

but i knew something had to be done

for if you left,

without knowing i existed

me and you would be no more

So i planned it out

Begged you to reply to my messages

How i wouldn't ever beg

but i had too

In the end

you gave in

I flew all the way

to see you through a window

Would that change if you were the girl from before?

would me and you get to meet eachother?

I don't know

you just weren't the girl from before

I knew the reason

Now what the hell should i do?

You try to live for yourself

When i try to fight for me and you

That was the limit

There is nothing a guy can do more

I ran outta gas

you tried moving on

How i still love you everyday

that's something that i just know

but i have nothing in my head that says I didn't do enough

I did everything i could

I can't ask myself for more

I finally got to know what love is though

Love has a soul

It's like the wind

You can feel it

You can't see it

I would want just you

But how do i trust you?

I wouldn't feel safe, if i knew you were the one who would watch my back

cuz i gave everything i had

you still wanted more

the clock is useless to me

time is nothing but an endless journey

I figured out something though

If you put all your effort into something you really want

you always get it

You came back now

out of nowhere really

just to talk to me

I don't even know what to say to you

I just keep on talking without thinking why or what for

All i know is

I pray for you and think about you all the time

How can i be angry at someone like that?

How can i try hating you?

When you're not there, i still have you around

what's the point of hating you, when you actually are around

Is my life, love?

I don't know

thats how it has been

for the last 4 to 5 years

but in this world

There is no one that i trust more

than myself

Fastabad'10

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me." ~Erma Bombeck

Such has been the month of April'10 and precisely, Fastabad'10.Not long ago was a time, when I was stuck in bed with a broken foot.I remember how useless I used to feel.I felt the very bottom, never realizing it was for the best.

"I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can't accept not trying. " Michael Jordan

To not try at that time, was what hurt.As soon as I started recovering, I made it clear, that I would give my all to whatever I would do.Fastabad'10 was a dream, and I don't let go of my dreams that easy.I never realized how much this 'event' meant to me before the final day.

Fastabad'10 wasn't a mega event that a few thought it would be.Many believed it would be a disaster.Personally, I never believed Fastabad'10 was meant to be a mega event.The people who worked for it, were the people who were sick and tired of not having a platform for us students.Fastabad'10 was just a platform.Most of us believe it was the first brick to a wall that is yet to be built.

"Light is just a shadow of many great things to come" bk

The tambola night gave Fastabad'10 the ending it deserved.It had over 150 guests(including the head of our university) taking part.It started to rain as the event came to an end.We were lucky enough to wrap everything up and get all the guests out of the tent.Our crew was trying to wind up things and the tent fell over me.As soon as i got out we all started shouting to make sure everyone was ok.It reminded me of this 'band of brothers' episode : /

To cut it short, (Hell sleepy) Fastabad'10 was a night to remember.

A prisoner-A Man-A human [My own writing]

Six years in prison

Have kept him awake

this is no way, to make him realize his mistake

He looks around, to see walls that now talk

You live only once, but its death for which he waits

Unlock the shackle

Leave him alone

Give him something

To have complete control

Hey Martha

How are you today?

How is little Andy?

Never tell him I live

I daily

Walk an ocean for you

I sometimes

Stop in between to have a look around

I search for things that you like

I buy all of them, every time

Today, was another yesterday

I slept early last night

The weather is changing

I'm still not burning deep inside

Tom says Hello

We have a business in sight

I won't take a risk

Just wanna earn a few dollars to spend on my life

six years in prison

Have kept him awake

this is no way, to make him realize his mistake

He looks around, to see walls that now talk

You live only once, but it's death for which he waits

Unlock the shackle

Leave him alone

Give him something

To have complete control

I sure am happy

I might see you soon

Buy yourself a new dress

You look cute in blue

How is the old man?

Do visit the grave of his wife

Just keep telling him

I apologize

Six years in prison

Have kept him awake

this is no way, to make him realize his mistake

He looks around, to see walls that now talk

You live only once, but its death for which he waits

Unlock the shackle

Leave him alone

Give him something

To have complete control

It's your voice in my head

that gives me sight

I promise, in the next world

We will live a better life

I love you