Sitting down with a notepad.So much shit going through my head
Enough with the lights, gonna turn them off.
Lets write a few lines, who knew love had a soul.
I need to start the part
which was cut in half
every time our words lost control
I was a boy, like them all
I never wanted to grow up before i was old
and like everyone else
I liked a girl or two
I still remember the day when i saw you
You came to my home with a smile
I was 12
you saw me naked thanks to a fucking cuzon who can't get his own shit right
Boy o boy
That night or after a few
we went for a walk
yeah, just me and you
I don't know what we said or how we talked
but there was something different about you
I can't explain it, I just have a glimse of me and you
You went away
like you were meant too
not before the night
when me and you played 'touch touch'
haha yeah we did, and no it wasn't rated
So moving on
You went to your home
started living your life
I guess I cried one night
but i moved on
Hell, i was just 12 that time
an year or so passed
me and you talked every once in awhile
and it wasn't till you were coming to my home on the next flight
that i got to know you better
I remember the buzz lightyear i used to play with infront of the webcam
Yeah I was always like that
Can't help it
You came..
You came
You came
You took my breath away
I saw you every single day
I used to come back from school straight to your place
Those were the days
That got me and you close
Those were the days
That i can so easily still live for
Sitting down with a notepad.So much shit going through my head
Enough with the lights, gonna turn them off.
Lets write a few lines, who knew love had a soul.
Baby remember the first kiss?
How we went home
You sat on that sofa
Waiting for me to make a move
I did so
I came close to you
I kissed your forhead
Your nose
and finally, your lips too
How you ran away,
You looked like a beauty queen
I still didn't love you
I didn't know what love could be
Days flew
and every day was amazing
It was time for you to go
A few nights before you were leaving
me and you got to know
what's it like, to be in eachothers arms
How we took that risk, I still don't know
For when everyone was sleeping
me and you, kept dreaming
about how we standing together, should never end
about how, we looked so perfect
The time came
you had to go
I got in my car
You jumped in without caring about what the world would think
Yeah that was me and you
we weren't scared
we did everything
How i held your hand underneath those tables
and how i grabed it tight, before your flight
I still can feel your hand baby
If only i knew i would never get to touch it again
I would never let go
Well
you left again
for one
two
three
four
I could do nothing
Distance was out of my control
We grew apart
and everytime
you were the one who didn't want more
I remember the nights when we first broke up
How i used to be on the phone
to all my friends, trying to figure out a way to get back to your home
They all tried, so did i
It was useless
You locked the door
Finally i gave up
When i figured you actually were outta control
You did something, I still don't know what for
I did everything for you
I did what i could
Where the fuck did i go wrong?
I just don't know
Time passed
I learned how to move on
I thank all my friends, who stood with me through it all
But you came back
Being who you were once before
I had to let it go
You were just a young soul
The bad memory faded in the past
but just cuz of it
I grew old
This time you tried
and i love you for it
I was outta my mind to even think of making it work
But you did
you fought it out
We got back on track
You and me, once more
All the days i spent with you
I will never take a single day for granted
I know what life is without you
I know what life is, with you
Back to my story
Things went wrong again
I guess the fights grew
We just split up, for no reason
It was my turn again
To get us back together
to work out a way
So i named it
Now or never
Now or never
I put my everything into it
Counted the hours for you to get to a place where i can take matters in my own hands
where i have no boundaries to get to you
and so i did
I took everything on
Remember how me and you were never scared?
I fought through it all
got to the place, where you would be coming
in the end, i was just a day short
where my dad, would kick me out, if i wouldn't get home
So i flew
all the way back home
I remember looking outside the window before the plane took off
I knew i was gonna see this place
soon
Once more
and so you came
I left you a mail
asking u to call me asap
You messaged me
I told you i would be coming
You didn't wanna see me
You wouldn't talk to me
You were someonelse
I felt so miserable
but i knew something had to be done
for if you left,
without knowing i existed
me and you would be no more
So i planned it out
Begged you to reply to my messages
How i wouldn't ever beg
but i had too
In the end
you gave in
I flew all the way
to see you through a window
Would that change if you were the girl from before?
would me and you get to meet eachother?
I don't know
you just weren't the girl from before
I knew the reason
Now what the hell should i do?
You try to live for yourself
When i try to fight for me and you
That was the limit
There is nothing a guy can do more
I ran outta gas
you tried moving on
How i still love you everyday
that's something that i just know
but i have nothing in my head that says I didn't do enough
I did everything i could
I can't ask myself for more
I finally got to know what love is though
Love has a soul
It's like the wind
You can feel it
You can't see it
I would want just you
But how do i trust you?
I wouldn't feel safe, if i knew you were the one who would watch my back
cuz i gave everything i had
you still wanted more
the clock is useless to me
time is nothing but an endless journey
I figured out something though
If you put all your effort into something you really want
you always get it
You came back now
out of nowhere really
just to talk to me
I don't even know what to say to you
I just keep on talking without thinking why or what for
All i know is
I pray for you and think about you all the time
How can i be angry at someone like that?
How can i try hating you?
When you're not there, i still have you around
what's the point of hating you, when you actually are around
Is my life, love?
I don't know
thats how it has been
for the last 4 to 5 years
but in this world
There is no one that i trust more
than myself
